getting past

Last night I texted a friend just to tell her I don't have any friends.  What a fucking joke I've become.

It's been a little bit since I've posted in here.  That's the way of things though, for me at least.  I feel like there are a lot of people who don't have the problems with inertia and frustration that I do.  Some people seem like they can just get up and go, right from the start of the morning.  I've never been that way.  It's a struggle just to get out of bed.  Everyday.  Throw on top of that an unhealthy dose of attitudinal saltiness and I wonder if my inertia isn't a benefit to the rest of the world I might encounter.

Struggling for the bright side but if you squint hard enough it's right there.  I can't explain it more than I already have without sounding like I'm throwing a pity party or being unreasonably harsh on myself.  But just trust that there's a bright side.  Even if you're not always in it.